|On his 28th birthday in Mumbai - Amma, me, Cheenu, my husband Kumar|
Met with Mr. Srinivasan on Tuesday. He came in stretcher bound in septic shock. We admitted him at Hopkins and he was on 2 pressors and slowly turned around. As of yesterday he was still on one pressor, but more alert. The family understands the prognosis is very poor and chemo is not an option at this point. He has rapidly progressing disease in the liver and left neck, base of tongue. This has not responded to TPF a toxic combination. Second line therapy after this would be less responsive and would require at least a doublet. Family aware more chemo will not prolong survival and would in fact increase his risk of succumbing to the underlying septic shock. Very sad situation... But wife and family are all on board and I think the visit to Hopkins is giving them closure. I was hoping I could help in some way, but situation is not salvageable.
Thanks again for the referral,
We consoled ourselves that a miracle would happen and he would be cured and that Baba would not forsake us in this hour of need. He had cured so many people of cancer and even brought people back from the dead. Would He not give my brother a lease of at least five more years of life?
Still I wasn't prepared for the sight of my handsome brother ravaged by the cancer. I controlled my reaction and my tears because I didn't want to traumatize him further. I tried to make inane conversation about a book I had read on the flight. Idiot me! I held his hand tight. I applied the vibhuti and the homa ash on his forehead. I stroked his head and arm but he said he didn't want me to touch him. His old allergy to any physical display of affection surfaced even then! “Your presence is strength enough,” he wrote.
He had a wonderful creative imagination. I remember a school composition in Std.10 in which he had written about the how a beer factory shut down because 'the yeast went on strike'!
Cheenu darling, we hope you have found eternal happiness and that your soul has found peace and rest. It is obvious that God loved you so much more than we did because he took you back sooner than we expected. I am so proud and happy that I had you as my brother. I will miss you dearly and will never forget you…